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Re: Empty Room(private plot usage) « Reply #20 on Jun 30, 2008, 10:43pm »
Theo turned around to glare at Porcelain, the grogginess that had infested his brain quickly evaporating. "I think we've been here before," he began icily, but soft enough that only she could hear. "Several times... Each time it resulted in you sleeping with another guy. Get it through your pretty little head, Adams, that I don't care anymore. I knew I wasn't who you really loved. Sure, you may love me, but it was never in the same way. Not really," he couldn't seem to hold his tongue, and he didn't even know where his confessional was coming from. He shouldn't be telling her this... "Then Tem ended up here. Thanks to you, Brann already had a grudge against me. You pinned us against each other at first for your own amusement. It didn't really matter later, because we became friends. I didn't like how he treated you, but you know... Then you kissed me, even though you were dating him and knew we were friends. As if that wasn't enough on its own, you used it to get back at him, not even thinking about what it might do to anyone else," he continued, his words getting progressively more vicious. "He killed her. Your boyfriend killed the first girl I ever cared about enough to grow to love. If you hadn't held me up in the Halloween party, she might still be alive. I can't get over it, because even though she's dead, I can't stop thinking about her," his voice was shaking now, "So forgive me if I wanted to see her one more time. No matter what the cost."
His chest was rising and falling rapidly with his breathing, and something in his face suddenly made him look so very young.
There's always another wound to discover; there's always something more you wish he'd say. "Loving someone is so hard...difficult. But hate. Hate is so....clean." -Clark Kent, Smallville
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Re: Empty Room(private plot usage) « Reply #21 on Jun 30, 2008, 10:56pm »
Porcelain stood there, the room was speeding up in front of her eyes, this was not what she wanted this to turn out to. Yet everything he had said was true, god she was really a horrible bitch. "I'm sorry, and I know it's not enough to turn back time but I am sorry..''
Her voice was barely audible as she forced back the vomit building up inside, "I never loved Brann, I was foolish and because of this I am condemned to live in my own eternal hell, but you I did love." Her body shook from the emotions building up, "Imagine what it's like to have your heart ripped out and being shoved into a relationship you can't get out of."
"My love for Myles will never compare to you, Theo." She looked down at the ground, "But that doesn't matter now, what's done is done.. And I can only hope that in the war I am lucky enough to die and leave this world.. Maybe even possibly let you live in peace."
How can you just walk on by Without one tear in your eye? Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me? Maybe that's just your way Of dealing with the pain, Forgetting everything Between our rise and fall Like we never loved at all.
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Re: Empty Room(private plot usage) « Reply #22 on Jun 30, 2008, 11:01pm »
"Too bad for you," he began softly, his voice gentler now, losing most of its edge. Most, but not all, "I promised that I wouldn't let that happen." There's no such thing as peace of mind, he thought swiftly to himself, ignoring the question that arose behind it; how long could he continue to think that way under the influence of drug use? It would hollow him out...
There's always another wound to discover; there's always something more you wish he'd say. "Loving someone is so hard...difficult. But hate. Hate is so....clean." -Clark Kent, Smallville
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Re: Empty Room(private plot usage) « Reply #23 on Jun 30, 2008, 11:09pm »
"You won't be able to keep that promise if you continue doing drugs.." Porcelain frowned, "You'll be dead before me and that wouldn't be right." She stood in front of him, he was so much taller than her and that made her feel little. "Why? Why hurt yourself for a few minutes of Tem? It's not her and you k now that, she's dead.. You've been to her grave everyday to know that now."
How can you just walk on by Without one tear in your eye? Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me? Maybe that's just your way Of dealing with the pain, Forgetting everything Between our rise and fall Like we never loved at all.
"Funny, your brother's not dead yet. One time, Porce. Don't make it out that I have some serious problem," he responded coolly, then put his hand on the handle of the door. She noticed that he visited her grave everyday... but he supposed it wasn't hard to miss if you watched enough.
There's always another wound to discover; there's always something more you wish he'd say. "Loving someone is so hard...difficult. But hate. Hate is so....clean." -Clark Kent, Smallville
"I don't give a damn about Sebastian, Theo." Porcelain said looking at him directly, "What I care about is you, I won't let you go die along with that girl." She clenched her fists together, "One time is bad enough, and who knows what would have happened if Zephyr and I didn't give a damn about you, you might of overdosed!"
She reached up for his shoulders and shook him, "Think Theo, where is the asshole hiding deep inside, stop hiding him and let him out!" She said trying to get him to understand, "Stop being so lifeless.. please.."
How can you just walk on by Without one tear in your eye? Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me? Maybe that's just your way Of dealing with the pain, Forgetting everything Between our rise and fall Like we never loved at all.
Theo smiled infuriatingly at Porcelain, then looked over at Zephyr. He did not make any move to pull away from her or leave just yet. "I don't know. I think I'm kinda being an asshole. Zeph, what do you think?"
There's always another wound to discover; there's always something more you wish he'd say. "Loving someone is so hard...difficult. But hate. Hate is so....clean." -Clark Kent, Smallville
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Zephyr watched the two of them in silence, not bothering to say anything. Too sappy and too pathetic for him. It was not something he wanted to participate in, untill he was addressed.
"I think you're both fucking stupid," he said, looking between Damien and Theo. Then his eyes set on Porcelain and he changed his mind. "Actually, you're all pretty stupid. Death isn't exactly pretty, if you haven't realized. And if you want to die with a needle in your arm and without any dignity, then be my guest. But I will not let myself mourn over someone that stupid."
Then he looked at Porcelain again. "And you're not much better. Wishing to die in a war because you're sad? Let's not honor the cause of the war or anything, clearly we're a bit too selfish for that."
He then froze, ending his rant. He watched the three of them, surprised by the amount of rage he felt in that moment. The rage did not seem warranted, but it was there. And he found himself having trouble controlling it.
"If this is all the society has, then I weep for the future. I weep for the world where selfish and drug addicted fools are the only hope we have."
And with that, Zephyr left, unable to take the conversation anymore without fear of hurting someone. It was unusual for Zephyr to feel that much emotion, that much hate, but the thought of people throwing away their lives for nothing was enough to bring such feelings to the light. He had already seen a life end, taken a life from an innocent person, and he knew that he never wanted that to happen again. There had been too much death at that school. If they wanted to contribute to it, if they wanted to just become another statistic, they could go ahead. But he had no intention of caring for them once they're gone.
Porcelain looked at Theo and as Zephyr left she found herself pissed. "Who the fuck tells me off and then leaves, what a fucking little ho.!" She stormed outside and grabbed Zephyr by the back of his gorgeous shirt and threw him back in the room, "Sit the fuck down!" She said poking him in the nose.
How can you just walk on by Without one tear in your eye? Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me? Maybe that's just your way Of dealing with the pain, Forgetting everything Between our rise and fall Like we never loved at all.
Theo found himself smirking darkly, cocking his head to one side and letting his straightened hair fall into his eyes. His emotions seemed to be flipping back and forth, and then finally slip away. "I'm sorry to leave all of you so soon, but I'm becoming a little disinterested with the whole unexpected rendezvous," he commented vaguely, smiling pleasantly at Zephyr and Porcelain. "Yes, we're all fucked... But it really hasn't changed much from the beginning. Good-bye." With that he was out the door and deep into the school. There was someone he needed to find.
There's always another wound to discover; there's always something more you wish he'd say. "Loving someone is so hard...difficult. But hate. Hate is so....clean." -Clark Kent, Smallville
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Zephyr yanked away from Porcelain and left the room. "Get off of me. I'm done with all of you," Zephyr shouted. And with that, he stormed back to his common room where he planned to wait until winter break, at which point he could escape.
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