Post by Spinner on Oct 7, 2007 19:18:33 GMT -5
September 15, 2025
It's been a while since I've written. Actually, that's a lie. I was writing five minutes ago, but that piece of paper is dead now. Or as dead as something that was never living can be. Wait. It was once living. Paper is made out of trees.... Fuck it.
I'm not used to this anymore. Now I'm about to burn the entire fucking journal.
But I won't.
Because I'm happy.
Anyway, it's been a while since I've written prior to the last entry I electrocuted. (It burst into flames) And my last journal was shredded in the temper tantrum that followed my being changed into a werewolf.
Tem is here. I'm happy, but I'm not sure if I should be. I never had to worry about her around mortals, well I did, but I didn't have to.
But....last year, Priscilla died. I don't know what I would do if the same thing were to happen to Tem. No disrespect to her, but I'm not sure if she's powerful enough, if she were weaponless. You know.
It's funny, sort of. How a few hours I was deathly afraid that I was in love with that insufferable, superficial, something of a debutante, Porcelain Adams. I'm still irritated with her for being her, but I'm not so sure about the love part. There might be something there, but upon seeing Tem again I can't bring myself to care. I missed her, I really did.
There were so many things that I wanted to say, but I couldn't. Partially because I'm too much of a chicken shit, and partly because I'm too much of an asshole to say anything from my heart.
But I do, I love her. I can't really help it. I kissed her, and I ended up getting flustered. Me. Flustered.
Can you imagine? I don't get that way. Ever.
Ever ever ever ever ever.
I'm not sure to hate it or dance with glee.
Actually, I won't do the latter. That sounds remarkably stupid. Unspeakably stupid. Irrevocably stupid.
Brann Gnister officially wants to kill me. Over something he thinks happened between Porcelain and me. We did NOT fucking make out. It was like a half a second kiss. And she kissed me. Okay, so I kissed her after. Maybe he shouldn't be such an abusive bastard and she wouldn't want to do anything with another guy. Or, god forbid, dump him.
As far as I'm concerned, he had it coming for a long time. He deserves far worse...
At least now he's with that suicidal brat. At least she wants it that way. Stupid moron. I swear if I overhear her screeching for a knife I'll stab her myself to save myself my hearing.
No. I wouldn't do that. I say I would, but all in all, I wouldn't. Adrienne Alste (or should I say Adrienne Still?) is incredibly stupid. I never really loved her, but I did care about her. She was nice as a friend, and I wish we could still be friends. Now she's on a surefire road to getting herself killed.
How, how could she not have known what was up? How could she have gotten herself into that mess? With Zy? I warned her. I fucking warned her.
That's it. She's an idiot. Or she's just in love. Whatever. Same difference. I guess we're all a little stupid really.
But she really wins out on us all.
In love with a psychopath, probably fucking him, and she's in a secret organization out to take over the world that tortures people as well. Not to mention- how many times did her and Sebastian Adams break up? Why couldn't it have stayed that way?
I may be an asshole, but I don't like my friends doing stupid things. Or stupid people.
Then there's that psycho whore of a sex-ed teacher. I swear I was going to kill him. Hugs? Please. I was going to gag.